Soul Level Insight
I have been seeking soul level insight since I was a child. When I look back, I can see that as a result of many different experiences that life threw at me, I began my search.
One of my first influencers in this arena was the fabulous Louise Hay, the founder of Hay House Publishing. Her ability to see the good in people and her book, ‘You Can Heal Your Life’, made a huge impact on me.
That book became a companion for me throughout my early 20’s. Anytime I had an ailment (which wasn’t often) I’d refer to that book. It enabled me to understand what was going on for me emotionally. Knowing how my feelings and thoughts were showing up in my body really helped me to manage my health and wellbeing - it was incredible.
Then life threw some serious curve balls.
When I was 23 my father was diagnosed with Bowel Cancer - it was devastating for our whole family. We had always known our father to be a stocky, strong, robust man so when he became ill it was hugely impactful to all of us. His Cancer journey was a real roller coaster for all of us. The first surgery (which resulted in him having a colostomy bag), radiation therapy then chemo. It was tough on him, he went from a muscular, physical and energetic man, to a shadow of his former self. That was devastating to witness, it not only affected his body, it also affected his mindset. He changed from being a real joker, fun loving man, who loved to sing - to a quiet, sullen man who began to fade away.
When he passed away in the Hospice in Nov 1995, as a family we were broken, utterly heart broken.
Less than 3 years later my mum was diagnosed with a ‘mass’ in her bowel. I remember thinking, ‘that’s not good’. Within 6 months from diagnosis she passed away in March 1999 and my heart shattered.
It was fragile after loosing dad and that experience smashed it like dropping a glass vase on ceramic tiles. I literally felt like pieces of mySELF were everywhere.
I didn’t know it then, but that’s where my real soul level journey started.
If life has handed you some crazy curveballs, know that I can relate - the really great news, you like me, will be OK in time.
Big love, tjrlxox
